Salad Daze Archive Unit 36 (1994)

eleven lines 

 

i am not

action figure sold 

seperately

 i am not

another paradigm scam

i am not

your latest bad excuse

i am not marketed

i am alive-alive-o

i am still

i am real 

Salad Daze Archive Unit 35 (1999)

 for gaïa 

these eyes bright w/ hope & love

wait for another

where years burn their vigils yet i

look upon another

every spark of a lusty season comes

risen for another

plowing under senses in the blind wave

seeking for another

always & again left in the rain

hope upon another

i yet will fall cold alone & raging

never for another

but only for you:

my gaïa

Standard Model Limit Postulate

     That for any new major insight to be added to Standard Model development of Quantum Field Theory, science will first need to engineer & acquire a new language coded specifically to such insight - one whose syntax, semantics & terminology render it both superior as a container/explainer for QFT proper, & compatible w/ generating apt additional input. The counter that the maths involved are themselves that language is at best hubris & at worst parlous hyperbole: a massive exponential rise in computing speed & power w/ which to exploit them, along w/ literal legions of bold brainiacs all attacking the known gaps in the model for decades on end, has been the herald of precisely zero new major elements to add to QFT.

 

    If it is correct, no new major insight in QFT is forthcoming for the indefinite future - or even possible, no matter how many man-hours or equations are thrown at it. It would thus also likely be an essential prerequisite to any potential union of QFT w/ Einsteinian Relativity.

Neural Optimization Postulate

 That human neural networks enhance net performance by using organic ambient changes in geometry or differential of ionic ratio/charge in adjacent non-sentient tissues ( blood, fat, glia, etc.) as a complementary signal processing system. If true, it should predict outsized or unaccountably absent effects from site-specific injury & pathology - & that measured peak mental acuity will exceed the demonstrable neuronal capacity used to reach it.

mein gedankenspiel: frisky frolics of a faded freak

 2004 was when I threw down the fingerless punk gauntlet: see if I have what it takes to force my slimy skull-walnut to emit an apt radical novelty. 

Either novel or radical are a cool calm summer breeze - while apt is a brutal beast that plays poorly with the others in the rare event when it ever does at all.

Play on!

Geadankenspieling has been one of my life's keenest joys - my little mutant pet that's totally free to play, in a proverbial void that lets me score as many ideas as I can, & has the personal potential for some utterly harrowing IRL results depending on what I come up with & whose chain it yanks.

Those Trifectas are the profane Grail, but there's plenty to chew on among the sloppy apocrypha, & to spare. One result was nothing but the intellectual equivalent of a tantrum, noting the tragic ongoing omission of a prime historical revolution: the shift toward female s3x selection first indicated by Chivalric Code & alleged all-girl "Courts Of Love" in medieval Europe. Another a cosmic mega-kludge that makes a lovely sibling to one at least partly inspired by the Susskind & t'Hooft mega-hologram model that's arguably FAR WEIRDER than mine.

Some synaptic byproduct even got frisky enough to inspire a "Dead Letter File" metagame of its own!

I also learned that I'm the kind of sick pervert heathen that can drop a one minute sermon!

The most recent is Q.L.O. - which came with 2 highly evocative instances that may or may not be proofs. Let posterity - or infamy - give someone who can tell the difference the call says I, & Alfred E. Neuman take the hindmost.

Doubt any subsequent treats can be siphoned out of all this dying fatty gray mucilage this late in the farce - but then, I always do...

x0x0x

jim 

Quantum Ludic Ontology (An Unreasonable Proposition For Unreasonable Times)

Proposing not only that what we refer to as meaning is a species of game that minds play w/ themselves to explain what is going on or why, but that said crazy Mind Calvinball can then be elucidated &/or upgraded by being mediated via the berserk conniptions of QFT such as decoherence, tunneling or entrained particle pairing (to name but a few)?

Might be worth a gamble, if only for the larks!

Salad Daze Archive Unit 34 (2005)

caliban's blues 

 

all of these days

eating me raw

flaw by bloody flaw

win lose or draw

 

all these centuries

burning me away

rend peel & flay

the devil i say

 

none of these failures

shall so much as slow me down

for i'm such a perfect clown

i'll dance until i drown 

Salad Daze Archive Unit 33 (2005)

the rise & fall of us all 

 

history is a fickle bitch

she loves to pull a bait-&-switch

in the smoking rubble we're sure we've got her

as we race to the next farce even hotter

 

history is a crazy dame

she shuns the meek yet strangles fame

as we march to triumph & destiny's seal

she giggles - & drops a new banana peel

Salad Daze Archive Unit 32 (2001)

 Posy

My eyes are wet but I will not weep

This is a little blessing for you to keep

& when you are wishing you could be brave

Your heart can renew this gift I gave

Salad Daze Archive Unit 31 (1998)

requiem for Pat Lowther 

 

circa 1984

i read your words

& i am still

scared to again

 

you

are still so good

that i am

going to anyway

Salad Daze Archive Unit 30 (2005)

 haiku for a black ladybug 

her 4 scarlet gems

herald beauty's dawn so shy:

enchanted daughter

Salad Daze Archive Unit 29 (1997)

wake  

 

truth is behind us

growing

we feed its verdict

 

change is yet ahead

maddening

 the themes of its melody

these paths

reveal their pilgrims

others wait

watching & smiling

virtue lives in us

fearing

the day of its awakening

Salad Daze Archive Unit 28 (1993)

 song of madness

i'm out of it                i'm inside it

i'm out of it                it's inside me

draw the line             cross the line

erase the line

i'm still alive                i'm still dying

i'm still alive                death am i

the world spins            the world stands still

in the beginning was the word

in the end only hissing rain

as it was it will be again

but all of this will never ever be

is this heaven's own dew

is this bitter dark blood

another utopia                another nightmare

another day                    another daydream

does this wind have a name

does this hour have a colour

we rise singing                we fall screaming

see the moon                   feel the sun

see the earth                   disappear ...

Salad Daze Archive Unit 27 (1994)

 di/agnostic prayer

the sun snuck out at the city

someone smiled 

a flag was put away under lock & key

the last one ever amen

Project Unbar Sinister

NOW IT BEGINS 

The Perpetual Morbid Bias Of Reality Filters

 There has never been a boon without someone to take credit for it.

There has never been a blight without someone explaining it away as the "mystery" of an omniscient deity or of a dead deterministic universe.

Salad Daze Archive Unit 26 (1997)

 nux vomica

There is no center here

and now ignorance shrinks terrified

Here is a worthy note for us all:

the curses of all children unfed

There are accidents over us

or can you not face them

There is no light here

so there is no point in turning away

Here is a lie applying to us all:

we couldn't do anything to change things

There are maniacs hunting us or

have you seen them yet

There are no terms here

as our spirits wounded shake and cry

This the trophy undiscovered:

in equal amity to grow unchained

There are monsters inside us or

are you one already

There is no edge here

and a tide pulls me harder

Here is a guess aimed at us all:

the sleepwalking is sweetest at the cliff

There is too little from us 

or did you not notice

Salad Daze Archivee Unit 25 (1998)

the death o' me.      

I promise more storms & with them more joy,
after the death o' me.
Perhaps then I won't even lay down to die,
long past the death o' me.
Days turn strange with tender new change,
after the death o' me.
Yet I'd know you word for word, someone just heard,
long past the death o' me.

See where I sail, don't you open my mail.
after the death o' me.
For it's my vague belief some might smile with relief,
upon the death o' me.
Nights wlll keep kisses for many shy misses,
after the death o' me.
My heartaches sincerely are costing us dearly,
'twill be the death o' me. 

inferno (Salad Daze Archive Unit 24 -- 1993)

inferno  

disdain this cold hand
the wind lets o'er your skin
renew the fire inside alive

push the fumes in deep
punish this instant with force
relinquish to me this sullen light

sow the gift of insane happinesses
the rain slides o'er your skin
refrain that aches next my heart

soothe each torment alas
with oh so many smiles at last
renew with a gesture smooth 

disdain each shade of bloom
that lurks below your gaze
disdain that cold hand

submit to these commands
the wind lets into your eyes
with oh so many tears

close the locket deep
claim each pulse for only me
with senses brought to life

harvest these new fires
the rain will never end them
with mere wishes hissing

amaze my ancient spirit
that frolics freshly spawned
submits to your commands

awaken your dormant embers
be my lorelei petal
as the heat enters eternity

dance among angels among avatars
without heed of victory
as dew glistens on my cheek

hold heat in this theatre
the night will never discover
as a bird invokes our sorrow forgot

touch a moment flaming
without your darker side remaining
as the light brightens this embrace

astonish our bodies in novelty
be an archangel of eros
awaken my dormant embers

define the faces of history
through a warped mirror
fly with my childish eye

deny us to the bloated moon
though our sexes wax with yearning
dive with me in dreams

destroy the prisons of fear
through a simple gambol
unknown its shivering abandon

denude the icy veil within
though comfort is in its sting
define the phases of mystery

kiss your fingers to midnight
laughing at a serpent flowing
crimson 'neath that jester

taste its unaged musk so new
revel as my desire lies asleep
crucified above this gesture

swim toward some invisible eon
laughing while it falls asunder
crashes into silence

languish a day in bondage
until the tears wound me
chrysalis of an alien destiny

create a song of earth
layers of gentle warmth now
kiss my wings to noontide

fuel our futile triumphs
while the age rolls sideways
element of pulsing passion

frisk in this sweet furnace
fraught with peril finally forgotten
element of sighs and tempests

sail o'er a morning flowing
while our blood calls us
element of tides and of life

ignite the sword of romance
that frolics freshly spawned
fuel the feeble triumvirate

press the shield of hope
near fury with desperation
to a new allegory

allow another asterisk alms
reveal its hidden bouquet
to my delighted sense

master these days with solace
near the gates of madness
to comic oblivion meandering

persist even through wounds
reveal my enigma screaming
to some unnamed goddess

two loves here did collide
fantasy alone gave them life
press the crest of mutiny

only with union your decline
insists upon sacred conflagration
smoke of forests releases

own a kingdom of gasps
yes justice slumbers
behind your sizzling vision

oh how distant you are
insists my mind in this darkness
yet still you are embracing me

opium of sacred lust
that frolics freshly spawned
only with fusion our sweet climb

race toward my comfort
let your misery fade to black
a paradox wrapped in ether

sound mutual depths with fire
leave their molten memory
a polished emblem for other eyes

bear new truths to this year
let it die sweetly on our lips
a parody of older tragedies

make love lonely with your grace
no more reason in this rhyme
a paroxysm of tongues flexing

warm yourself on this moan
defend the pride of romance
race away from your abyss

lost my heart to your blaze
as it crept down my spine
in a season of bittersweet ice

saw you there so small so holy
in the distance a guiding star
in your skin what was awoken

touched your body in a fog
as a song began slowly burning
in our thoughts like gasoline

gained a star in furious morning
neither tear nor laugh was found
lost your rainbow to my reverie

nuzzle this crooked wood
into dancing rebirth
at the crux of this our comedy

pass your torch to glory
alarm my sleeping surfaces
at each hair leave garlands

halt anachronism of time
into your web bind it fast
at its tomb leave one red rose

sing ever soft your need
alarm muses with its musky fluid
at your zenith tides do turn

rest to struggle further
in another wild millennium
nuzzle that horizon of self

play upon these chilly bones
derange them into symphonic joy
as yours also release hot dew

play with fire as it hesitates
natural oven your dark pudendum
shudder with the divine contract

play beyond the wall of slumber
derange the core so tenderly steaming
in other eve i too will send ripples

play upon my velvet bell
that frolics freshly spawned
play beneath our tropical bones

join our geographies to dream
serve we now a better duty
for each moment it loves us

in the nexus peace calls
 to an ideal as fine as sterling
for no jester can this deny

solve the riddle of our desires
serve their hunger a painless hell
for this alone is our erotic purpose

claim the heritage of love's wisdom
free it from our sighing throats
for it is fantasy worth any gold

soothe our grief in this poultice
care against these bitter times
join our infinities awake

folly unleash from its planet
holy signs left here behind
pure the ceremony begun

question's writhing ember balanced
upon our lips so mild
pure enough never to burn us

the sound of hissing rain
holy anointing mantle shines
pure beyond remembrance this

ascend the sacred tower of lust 
that frolics freshly spawned
folly return to its fine orbit

draw me nigh queen of infernal sky
save this knave with laughter
all his horns are burnished

make vinegar tempt bees
or the crow turn snow white
all his feathers illuminated

each trail of solitary honey
save until it ends in rebellion
all arisen from your female springs

mine is the triumphant ode
or suicide turned inside out
all of which is your crazy doing

feed the flame my secret name
as the fuel gathers speed
draw down the sky with one bright eye

kiss my lazy butterfly
out of its rank dark dungeon
as something original explodes

kiss the century goodbye
with a high gazebo of innocence
this the most perfect crime

kissing your darkening nipples
out of their hibernation
as i wish you to justly reply

kissing something original
my virtue ruined in flickering bliss
kissed into that alien territory

awake to fiery novelty
after these mad mazes
so winds the timeless path

harmonize absurd logic
hiding beneath bronze skin
so to enlighten my service

pluck these strings to frenzy
after our penance is done
so fine its destruction then

live beyond any rule herein
worthy only of catharsis
so distilled are its many jewels

sonnet of truth we sculpted 
somewhere 'twixt beauty and pain
awake oh fleshy incendiary

take me to your well of blood
relief awaits me hot and good
mine alone its weeping smile

rhyme its course with ferment
to seal another scroll
mine to give this serpent of fire

comet of black tickling hair
relief from solemn rites
mine to give and to be given

silk bolt convulsing below 
that frolics freshly spawned
takes you to my tower of blood

live in the envelope of now
hope past the long treachery
your beacon persists even here

pursue the pleasure within
anomaly that flirts with eternity
your abandon insists on stillness

flicker out from this cage
hope futures into form
your contact sends blessing sparks

shoot the roman fire of fancy
anomaly incandescent rebellion
your pulse the ash is reborn

shine inside my palm ascendant
blend your oils at the apex
live in the labyrinth of now

learn a rune for no good reason
decide to the blind horizon
cast a stone at another hour

learn the codes of myth
portray an obscure angel
as a wave rises to this land

learn through each foul membrane
decide to claim a journey
unborn as the chorus of tomorrow

learn as you weave silly tapestries
that frolic freshly spawned 
learn the tune of sweet reason

glide across the cursing ice
on wings streaming orange tentacles
whimsy the enigma drifts laughing

plow an altar to bedrock
as it rises through glistening
whimsy delicious yet terrifying

descend this archway softly
on feet grand and deft
whimsy in each plump toe

cleave your way to my foundry
with a bladed ringing gaze
whimsy the anvil of this creation

flee evening in your inspiration
on spastic pinions free
glide into the shattering ice

prepare the new temple
where my holy storm intrudes
by the game of prankster heat

gather the cooing red flock
of sizzling knives to their reunion
by the grace of our supremacy

plead with me to the silent one
where she patiently dreams us all
by a mad cycle of invisible songs

construct the platform soundly
this no mere sacrament we bear
prepare the ancient temples

pin up another molten medallion
upon this breast that heaves amazed
to have such honour made

achieve the mania you aspire
lovely its agony to such victory
to gain such a titanic prize

skim the ripples of liquid heat
upon your golden cup of days
to beauty mock with its own warmth

drain each drop with that wise tongue
lovely this instrument beyond harmony
to relent exhausted by such a destiny

gasp as its momentum spins
inside each inch of sweating skin
pin down its placid desperation

wisps of frost disintegrate
in the vortex our touch revives
by honeyed synergy to exclaim

whistling cyclone the lion undying
delicate executioner of blackness
in undulating tails you anoint

nova of pleasing now releasing
that frolics freshly spawned
whispering miles of naked ballad

fashion a heraldry that breathes
from layers of history hearkening
molded in motion with gesticulation

stir shadows false in your torch
arc it past the frigid skyline
molded in rebirth screaming

return intact the igneous egg
from its dank nest so alluring
molded by these velveteen pressures

coalesce faithful dear child of fire
to one great purpose conquer
molded between our gentle fingers

salvation true in this laurel
so link it unto perpetual comedy
fashion a visage that pauses

proclaim my fealty to that glow
so as to bind it sternly
drop of wax bears soft glad regalia

let one candle stand for two
an edge of light we now defy
drop of wine the holy discovery

blood of the air that feeds us
so every laugh can ring the strongest
drop of red dew is this coal

strange feast of your hot breath 
that frolics freshly spawned
proclaim your treason to this night

capture with earthy gazes
the fringes of my silhouette
lines that liquefy in this current

pose a circus march of loiterers
arch solid blinding lightning
lines that breed afterimages

retain without any mnemonic
the quivering knives nearly singing
lines soldered into a monolith

stoke the unknown engines
arch spine like spirit dragon
lines traced in night sky making faces

risk all futures on an imperial gesture
loiter at the threshold of ignition
capture with celestial gazes

paradise is within inferno concealed
fortunes of liberty are set in stone
licence somehow its rules revealed

panic claims its banquet of revelry
drools eerie trails of viscous vapour
spectra bubbling in greying chorus

pacific tide of waves on fire
fortunes flock to surreal certainty
true as the bullet of my climax

pathway etched in cracking steel
it frisks and meanders dreamily
paradise is beyond inferno unsealed

flare out of the cauldron of years
sweet smoky child survivor
drift o'er the landscape of fuels

flow with the music always
extinguish not thy purification
drift loose when the crux draws nigh

deign to grace us with salvation
sweet fumes of delphi in thy gaze
drift to me o'er tides restlessly

descend with praise oh flame of thought
pronounce these epicycles worthy
drift beneath them with heated wit

flood icy evening openly
a deed too true for these words
flaring into the vase of moments

labyrinth of sultry touch
branding the dark with visions
collide awake as my arousal

crackling silence of these sighs
mated to impossible light
collide with exploring novelty

recline alas unjoined herein
branding the black sky with wishes
collide in chaos in holy truth

conspiring erotic jewel of fancy
that frolics freshly spawned
labyrinth of chill longing

ode so small so righteous
you inscribed through a haze of smoke
incandescent seraph so shiny

chorus madly invoked then
my eyes illumined with romance
incandescent laughter of forever

unseen beings beheld the rite
you grew from foetal reveries
incandescent in its vast maturing

ink of red and paper forest green
my eyes fluttered with their marriage
incandescent respendent and wild

destroying time with pleasure
liberty our only authority
ode so long is this clear river

resonate with darkness smould'ring
defy every cold and faceless tower
with the candle of immortal cupid

resort to the fire of my sex
the blooming growth finally freed
by the captivity of thy shadow

resume other concerts gladly
defy even this if whim commands
balance totality at perihelion

resounding angelic wind of orgasm
that frolics freshly spawned
resonates with light bursting

flickering beads in opaline vision
crowning the sculpture of profiles
cataract of lust that sacred smoke

spill another grandiloquent drop
crowning the mantle vermillion
cataclysm of fulfillment crackling

meander in these allegoric forests
crowning their sentinels orange
catlike kinetic fluid of imaginations

laze beneath the tree of paradox
crawling to conquest merrily
catalysts distilling with gestures

rendezvous with some empathic sprite
yearnings twist like strange serpents
flickering beads of fire leap blindly

glow along with this blood sceptre
plunging gift of eager trance
we each collapse before this knight

master the slow dance of unity
wet streams scorch the bodies now
we assent to its blue-white beams

glorying in a naked promenade
plunging into this lava
we can only cry out triumphant

consume this bubble of ambrosia
while we push aside each barrier
glowing amidst this plebian theatre

delve 'neath a meniscus of stars
dare to enjoy your secret island
inflamed with my unicorn of lusts

merge into this effervescence
tease the cool mask of history
infuse it with a charm thus born

wave to the sky at last sublime
dare the simplest courages
inflame my nervous surface now

charge quixotic yet still victorious
tease the edges of another eve
infuriatingly delight this tongue

with such liberty wisdom makes
while our humid hearts stirring
delve above a field of stones

moan a song of sweet dissonance
hallowed hymns in erotic trance
repent the metropolis once again

moan with your musky sacraments
drain my flask unto oblivion
as the galaxy wheels over elegant

moaning our loving intersection
hallowed as these shaking limbs
dare the smallest fear to death

moan at infinity suddenly ripe with heat
that frolics freshly spawned
sing the noises of assonance

embrace this darkling meteor
as it crosses your invisible cosmos
thrust against its insisting power

return to the first sparks
as they scrape us out of dust
thrown together gasping in ecstasy

flash those dusky eyes of youth
as the horizon bursts with sunsets
thrilling the marrow of dying day

brush against this beautiful abyss
asking for only a few hours to kiss
through which to cheat its archives

wrap the breast of evening in
a standard of pure flame
embrace this sparkling phoenix

bend this light of my vision
startling in its first discovery
find the gold of this spirit

whole at last our vanquished solitudes
disappear under such lightning
find the key here that releases it

reign here in this secret grove
startling its unwelcome tranquility
find the new storms of your heart

refine them to dazzling clarity
that frolics freshly spawned
bending that night of our visions

enchant this thudding heart
deranged by your smoky musk
kindly does it beckon to me

wrap my kisses deep within
the orchid of your vulva
kindling this rite of new virtue

twine our fingers together
deranged in their perpetual mingling
kind combat they then make

flex this feminine majesty
the feast of my virgin tongue
kin to the small glowing pink coal

rage with sweating pleasure
as my kisses seek your explosion
enchant this peaceful heart

a reddening soft conflagration
offering upon its dewy altar
the marvel of a heaven in life

a ruby beyond any price
that gains conquest by surrendering
its fantastic sense of wholesome joy

a banquet of soft groans
offering our fires to history
while we tease the winter to shreds

a swollen hooded demon
emerges as you signal your rapture
a blushing stiffening conflagration

deny that cold hand
the rain sends o'er your skin
return to this panting demand

tense oh beast waiting within
to the last insistent force
spread long soft wings for final flight

sow the seed upon its course
the zenith now of my own hot delight
refrain that shudders deep within

soothe each torrent at last
with just this many smiles that spin
springing forth gestures so fast

distinct each gasping command
below your gaze there is oblivion hot
denying this cold hand

submit to those commands of thought
their chain frees my own surprise
with such a burning shower

close to you its length does rise
with each pulse of my bursting flower
our swooning senses revel in life

my purple bulb, your ruddy nest
their reign of endless union blessed
with a wish here newly dawned

amaze this bashful request
that frolics freshly spawned
submit to love with sighing rest

 
 
  
 
 

Salad Daze Archive Unit 23 (1993)

II. Terpsichore  

you hide my wild gestures in esprit
the realms of darkness & light
while they struggle free effortlessly
to the tableaux of noon & midnight 

there are only bodies straining wildly
beneath my voluminous quilt of gasps
you force them from your breast
the milts of myth allegory trance
this is where lays liberty
this wheel pulsates with living blood

you send the thrill to its target
the realms of my sister muses
while inspiring visionary reverie
that the fate of each sense chooses

there are treasures in my touch
o for those few who will dare try
you can enter my fog of raptures
the sails of whimsy grace delerium
these are the gates & keys you love
send them to their purpose yes

you reveal to me your blushing charms
the intimacy of crimson energies
you clasp this wind in welcoming arms
my synergy your heart to appease